His Captive Queen

The Duke of Arles was explaining the intricacies of crop rotation. His lands, he said, produced the hardiest strain of wheat on the continent. His voice was a low, monotonous hum, a sound that was easily lost beneath the clatter of silver on porcelain and the polite, meaningless laughter that echoed in the vaulted dining hall. I watched his mouth move. His lips were thin and pale. I imagined kissing them and felt nothing at all, a complete and perfect void.

I nodded, a gesture I had perfected. It was a princess’s nod: agreeable, attentive, and entirely vacant. “Fascinating,” I said. The word tasted like dust.

To my left, the Baroness de Courville was smiling at the ambassador from the Northern Isles. Her smile did not reach her eyes. The ambassador wanted fishing rights in the Azure Strait; the Baroness wanted her youngest son fostered at the northern court, away from the influence of his degenerate uncle. A simple, if delicate, trade. I traced the lines of the transaction in my mind, a familiar mental exercise. It was how I stayed sane. I mapped the alliances, the debts, the quiet resentments. It was a game of strategy, and I was a very expensive playing piece. My marriage to the Duke would secure our southern border and give my father’s fleet preferential access to his ports. A princess for a port. That was the math of it.

Across the long, candle-lit table, my father caught my gaze. His eyes, the same shade of cool grey as my own, held a silent command. Engage. Please him. It was not a request. It was an inventory check. He was ensuring his asset was performing as expected. I turned back to the Duke and placed my hand near his on the white linen tablecloth, not quite touching. A calculated display of warmth.

“Your father tells me you enjoy falconry,” the Duke said, his attention finally shifting from agriculture.

“I do,” I lied. I hated the way the birds’ hoods made them look like tiny, feathered prisoners.

Later, as the guests began to drift from the hall toward the ballroom, my father’s hand landed on my arm. His grip was firm, proprietary. He steered me into a small alcove, shielded from view by a heavy tapestry depicting a bloody, triumphant battle from our family’s history.

“The Duke seems taken with you,” he said. His voice was low, stripped of the public warmth he wore like a crown.

“He finds my interest in his wheat production compelling.”

My father’s fingers tightened for a second. A warning. “Do not be clever, Giovanna. You are to be his wife. It is your duty to this kingdom, to this family, to see that he is pleased with his arrangement.”

Arrangement. That was what this was. Not a marriage. Not a life. It was an arrangement, a contract for which I was the consideration. He looked at me, his face impassive, and I felt the suffocating weight of the castle, of the title, of the years stretching out ahead of me beside a man who spoke of soil and dogs.

“I understand my duty, Father,” I said. The words were correct. They were what he needed to hear. He gave a curt nod, his part in the transaction complete, and released my arm. He turned and walked away, leaving me alone in the shadow of the violent, victorious dead.

I didn't return to the ballroom. I walked in the opposite direction, my hand trailing along the cold stone of the corridor until I found the small, unmarked door that led to the sea-facing gardens. The air that met me was cool and sharp, tasting of salt and damp earth. It was a relief.

I walked down the gravel path, the sound of my own footsteps a quiet crunching in the night. The orchestra was a faint, muffled pulse from the castle behind me, almost entirely consumed by the rhythmic wash of the waves against the cliffs below. The garden was dark, the moon hidden by a thin veil of cloud. I could smell the night-blooming jasmine, a sweet, heavy perfume that mingled with the brine. I stopped at the stone balustrade and looked down toward the royal docks. A few lanterns swayed on their posts, their light shifting on the black water. For a moment, there was only the sound of the sea.

Then a different sound carried up from the docks. A man’s shout, abruptly cut off. It was followed by a wet, percussive thud. I froze, my fingers tightening on the rough stone of the balustrade. The dock guards were supposed to be vigilant. It could have been anything. A dropped crate, a drunken fight between sailors.

I remained still, listening. Another noise. A low grunt, and the scrape of a boot on wood. It was the sound of effort, of strain. My strategic mind, the one that charted political marriages and trade routes, told me to retreat. To go inside and alert the guard. But my feet stayed planted. I leaned forward, trying to peer through the gloom.

Heavy, hurried footsteps pounded on the stone stairs that cut up the cliff face from the docks to the garden. They were coming this way. They were not the synchronized, leather-shod steps of the King’s guard. This was something else, something frantic and heavy.

I pushed myself back from the balustrade, melting into the deep shadow of a cypress hedge. My heart was a frantic drum against my ribs. Three figures emerged from the stairwell, large, dark shapes moving with a predatory swiftness. They were dressed in rough, practical clothing that seemed to absorb the dim light. They smelled of the deep sea, of sweat and iron and something acrid, like old tar.

I held my breath, trying to will myself invisible. But one of them stopped. His head turned in my direction. I didn’t know how he could have seen me.

Before I could process the thought, before I could even command my legs to run, he was there. He crossed the ten feet between us in two silent strides. A hand, enormous and rough, slammed over my mouth, stifling my scream before it could form. The smell of him was overwhelming—salt, sweat, and the faint, metallic scent of blood. An arm, corded with muscle and solid as an anchor chain, wrapped around my torso, hoisting me off the ground. My feet left the path. The air rushed out of my lungs in a choked gasp.

I fought. It was a pure, animal instinct. I twisted and kicked, my nails scraping at the arm around my waist. My fists beat against a back that was a wall of solid muscle. It was useless. He held me fast, his grip brutally efficient. Another man grabbed my flailing legs, his grip like a vise around my ankles. The fine silk of my gown tore with a soft, ripping sound. They didn't speak. There was only the sound of my own muffled struggling and their heavy, controlled breathing. The world narrowed to the pressure on my mouth, the unyielding strength pinning me, the terrifying, simple fact of my own powerlessness.

They moved with a brutal economy of motion, carrying me back down the stone steps I had just ascended. The man holding my torso had one arm locked beneath my ribs, and I could feel the hard ridges of his knuckles pressed into my side. The sky was a swatch of dark grey, and the castle, my home, receded above the cliff edge, its familiar silhouette becoming a jagged line against the clouds. My mind, strangely detached, noted the efficiency of it all. No wasted energy, no unnecessary cruelty. Just a job being done.

We reached the docks. The air grew thick with the smell of fish and brine and damp, rotting wood. They carried me along the wharf, past tethered fishing boats that bobbed gently in the black water. At the end of the longest pier, a ship was moored. It was larger than the others, a dark hulk with a single mast that clawed at the sky. There were no royal colors, no livery. It was stark and black, built for speed and nothing else. The name painted on the stern in faded white letters was Sea Serpent.

A rope ladder was slung over the side. One of the men climbed it with unnerving ease. The man holding me passed me upwards, an undignified transfer from one set of strong arms to another. For a moment, I was suspended over the dark, churning water between the pier and the hull. Then I was on the deck.

The wood was rough and damp beneath my thin slippers. The deck was a clutter of ropes, barrels, and coiled chains. Men moved in the shadows, their faces lit intermittently by the swinging lanterns. They were hard-looking men, their expressions ranging from mild curiosity to open appraisal. They looked at my torn silk gown, at my bare arms, at my face. I felt my skin prickle, but I forced my chin up. I would not be livestock for their inspection.

A man stepped out from behind the mast, moving from shadow into the weak lantern light. He was taller than the others, broader. The word ‘large’ was insufficient. He was built on the scale of a landmark, a feature of the landscape. He wore no shirt, only dark, stained trousers. His entire torso, his arms, his neck, were covered in a dense network of black tattoos. Swirling lines that mimicked waves and sea creatures twisted over the hard planes of his muscles.

He stopped a few feet from me. The man who had carried me onto the ship still had a firm grip on my upper arm. The captain—he had to be the captain—looked at me. His eyes were dark, and they held no warmth at all. They assessed me the way my father had assessed the Duke, as a piece in a transaction. His hair was black and thick, tied back from a face that was all harsh angles and weathered skin. A thick, dark beard covered his jaw.

He looked at the man holding my arm. "Leave her."

His voice was low and gravelly, the sound of stones grinding together underwater. The hand on my arm fell away. I stood alone on the deck of his ship, surrounded by his men. I did not move. I met the captain's gaze and held it. Fear was a cold, solid weight in my stomach, but I would not let it show on my face. I had been trained my whole life to mask my feelings behind a veneer of placid royalty. It was the only weapon I had.

He took a step closer. The smell of him was the smell of the ship itself: salt, woodsmoke, and the clean, sharp scent of the open ocean.

"You know who I am," I said. My voice came out steadier than I expected.

A corner of his mouth lifted, a motion that was not a smile. "I know you're the king's daughter."

He looked me up and down, a slow, deliberate inventory. His gaze lingered for a moment on the tear in my dress, then moved back to my face.

"You are on my ship now," he said, his voice leaving no room for argument. "Your father will pay a great deal of money to have you returned. Until he does, you are my prisoner."

His words hung in the damp air. He turned his head slightly and gestured with his chin toward a hatch at the stern. “Take her below.”

The man who had held my arm before stepped forward again. This time, he didn't grab me. He waited. I looked from his impassive face to the captain’s. Leuan’s dark eyes were unreadable. Waiting for me to resist, perhaps. To scream or fight so he could demonstrate his power again. I did not give him the satisfaction. I turned and walked toward the hatch, my torn dress whispering against the rough planks. The pirate followed a step behind me.

The stairs were steep, more like a ladder. I descended into the narrow, dimly lit passageway below deck. The air was close, thick with the smell of unwashed bodies, stale ale, and bilge water. He led me to a door at the end of the passage, the only one that looked solid and well-maintained. He pulled a heavy iron key from his belt, unlocked it, and pushed it open. He gestured for me to enter.

I stepped over the threshold, and he pulled the door shut behind me. The sound of the key turning in the lock was loud and final. I was alone.

I stood still for a full minute, listening. I could hear the muffled sounds of the crew on the deck above, the creak and groan of the ship’s timbers, the gentle slap of water against the hull. I was in the captain’s cabin. It was nothing like I would have imagined. There was no chaotic sprawl of treasure, no silks or furs looted from other ships. It was starkly, surprisingly, orderly.

A narrow cot was built into the hull on one side, its single wool blanket folded with military precision. A small, sturdy table of dark wood was bolted to the floor, a single chair tucked neatly beneath it. On the table, a nautical chart was rolled and tied with a piece of twine, placed next to a brass lantern and a tin cup. Against the far wall sat a heavy, iron-banded sea chest. The floor was scrubbed clean. The room smelled of beeswax and salt, not stale rum. This was the room of a man who valued discipline.

My heart was still a frantic, frightened thing in my chest, but my mind felt cold and clear. Tears were a luxury, and an entirely useless one. I started with the door. I ran my fingers over the heavy oak planks, testing their strength. Solid. The lock was a large, formidable iron mechanism. I pressed my ear against it, but I didn't know what I was listening for. I examined the hinges; they were thick and well-oiled, the bolts driven deep into the frame. There would be no forcing it.

I moved to the single, small porthole. The glass was thick and distorted, showing only a dark, wavering smear of the water outside. The brass frame was sealed shut, the latches rusted tight. Even if I could open it, it was barely wide enough to fit my head through, let alone my shoulders.

My eyes scanned the room again, this time for a weapon. The tin cup was too light. The chair was too heavy to wield effectively in the small space, and bolted down besides. I walked to the table and picked up the rolled chart. It was heavy, the parchment thick and expensive. I slid the twine off and unrolled it. A map of the southern archipelago, detailed with currents and shoals. No use to me now. I put it back.

I knelt by the sea chest. I ran my hands over its surface, feeling the grain of the wood, the cold, rough texture of the iron bands. The lock was smaller than the one on the door, but just as sturdy. I tugged at the lid. It didn't budge. My gaze swept the floor, searching for a loose nail, a splinter of wood I could use to probe the lock. The floorboards were tight and even.

My hands smoothed down the silk of my ruined gown, my mind working. The fabric was fine, but the thread was strong. I thought of the embroidery needles in my chambers at the castle. A hairpin. I had nothing. My hands went to my hair, but the maids had styled it loosely, with only a few simple pins that were long gone, lost in the struggle in the garden.

I stood up and paced the length of the small cabin. Three steps one way, three steps back. The ship gave a sudden, deep lurch, and I stumbled, catching myself on the edge of the table. The movement was different now. Not the gentle rocking of a moored vessel, but the purposeful roll of a ship cutting through open water. We were moving. We were leaving.

I stood there, my hand flat on the cool wood of the table, and felt the vibration of the sea through the soles of my slippers. My kingdom, my father, my old life—it was all falling away behind me with every rise and fall of the waves. I was a prisoner. I was a commodity. But I was alive. And my mind, the only part of me they couldn't put in chains, was already searching for a way out.

I woke to grey light filtering through the grimy porthole. The ship was in constant motion, a deep, rhythmic rolling that had become the new foundation of my world. My body ached from the thin mattress and the unfamiliar movement, a dull soreness in my hips and shoulders. I had not slept well, but I had not cried. I had spent the dark hours listening to the ship’s groans and the distant shouts of the men on watch, cataloging the sounds, trying to build a map of this place in my mind.

The sound of the key scraping in the lock was jarringly loud. I sat up, pulling the rough wool blanket to my chin. The door swung inward and he was there, a dark shape against the brighter light of the passageway. He had to duck his head to enter.

It was Leuan. He carried a wooden plate and a tin cup. He closed the door behind him, and the small cabin seemed to shrink by half. In the daylight, I could see him more clearly. The tattoos were an intricate web of black ink, coiling around his thick arms and across the hard expanse of his chest. There were small, pale scars mixed in with the ink—a thin line across his collarbone, a puckered mark on his shoulder. He wore the same dark trousers, and his feet were bare.

He said nothing. He walked to the table and set the plate and cup down. The sound of the tin hitting the wood was sharp. He stepped back, his arms crossed over his chest, and leaned against the wall by the door. His presence was a physical weight in the air.

I looked at the plate. Two large, pale biscuits that looked as hard as stone, and a small pile of shriveled figs. In the cup, there was water. My stomach, which had been a tight knot of fear, gave a small, traitorous pang of hunger. At the palace, my breakfast would have been warm bread, soft cheese, a bowl of fresh berries, and sweetened milk.

I swung my legs off the cot. The floor was cold. I did not look at him as I moved to the table and sat in the chair. I picked up one of the biscuits. It was dense and heavy in my hand. I brought it to my mouth and took a bite. It was as hard as I expected, and completely tasteless. I chewed slowly, deliberately, my jaw working against the unyielding texture. I needed to swallow, but my throat felt tight. I reached for the cup and took a small sip of water. It was cool and tasted faintly of metal.

He was still watching me. I could feel his gaze on the top of my head, on my hands, on the movement of my jaw. The silence was absolute, broken only by the sound of my chewing and the creak of the ship’s timbers. He was waiting for something. For me to complain, perhaps. To weep at this pathetic offering. To show him the delicate princess, broken by a single night of captivity and a piece of hardtack.

I finished the first biscuit. I took another sip of water. Then I picked up a fig and ate it, the concentrated sweetness a strange shock on my tongue. I ate another. When I was done, I placed my hands in my lap. And then, I lifted my head and looked at him.

His dark eyes met mine. They were unreadable, holding no malice, but no kindness either. They were simply watching, observing me as I had been observing my surroundings. A strange sort of parity. I held his gaze. I thought of the endless diplomatic functions, of holding a pleasant expression while a boring old man explained his lineage. I thought of standing beside my father while he negotiated treaties, my face a perfect, placid mask. I knew how to be looked at. I knew how to reveal nothing.

I did not blink. I did not look away. The ship rolled, and he shifted his weight slightly to compensate, a fluid, unconscious movement. His eyes never left my face. I saw a flicker of something in their depths—not surprise, maybe just a recalibration. He was learning something about me, just as I was learning about him. He was not just a brute. He was disciplined, controlled. And he was studying me.

A corner of his mouth moved, the barest hint of the same expression from the night before. It wasn't a smile. It was an acknowledgment. He pushed himself off the wall and turned toward the door. He did not say a word. He unlocked it, stepped out into the passageway, and pulled it shut. The key turned, the heavy bolt sliding home. I was alone again. I looked down at the last biscuit on the plate. I picked it up and began to eat.

An hour later, the key turned. The door opened. He didn't enter this time, just stood in the doorway, blocking the light.

"You can come on deck," he said. His voice was flat. "Stay out of the men's way. Do not speak to anyone."

It was not a request. I rose from the chair, my spine straight. I walked toward him. He stepped back into the narrow passageway to let me pass, and for a moment my shoulder almost brushed his arm. The air around him felt warm. He followed me up the short, steep ladder that led to the deck.

The light was blinding. I had to lift a hand to shield my eyes, blinking against the sudden, shocking brightness of the sun on the water. The wind pulled at my hair, whipping loose strands across my face. It smelled of salt and something sharp, like tar. The deck was a chaotic ballet of activity. Men with bare, sun-darkened backs were hauling on thick ropes, their muscles cording. Another was swabbing the deck with a grim-looking mop. The man at the ship’s wheel stared straight ahead, his hands firm on the spokes.

All of it stopped when I appeared.

The men hauling the rope paused, their hands still gripping the line. The man with the mop stopped swabbing. A dozen pairs of eyes turned to me. They were curious, hostile, some openly leering. I was a creature from another world. My pale blue silk gown, stained now at the hem and wrinkled from a night spent on a cot, was an absurdity here. It was a splash of delicate, useless color in a world of brown, grey, and weathered wood.

I felt their stares like a physical touch, crawling over my skin. I let my hand drop from my eyes and looked straight ahead, my expression placid. I was a princess. I had been stared at my entire life. I knew how to be a symbol.

Leuan stepped up beside me. He didn't look at the crew, but a low growl seemed to emanate from his chest. "Get back to it," he said, his voice not loud, but carrying a weight that had them all turning back to their tasks instantly. The ballet resumed. The moment was broken.

He indicated a small, clear space near the stern. "Stay here."

I walked to the spot he designated, my slippers feeling thin and inadequate on the rough planks. I stood by the ship's railing, my hands resting lightly on the wood. It was weathered and slightly sticky with salt. From here, I had a clear view of most of the main deck.

I began my work.

There were two longboats lashed to the deck, one on either side. They were secured with a series of heavy ropes and what looked like a complex series of knots. It would take time to release them. It would make noise.

I counted the men I could see. Fourteen. Plus the captain makes fifteen. There were likely more below deck. They worked in small, efficient teams. A group of four managed the sails, responding to orders shouted by a grizzled man with a grey-streaked beard and a permanent scowl. He must be the first mate. He watched me with particular dislike.

I tracked their movements. I noted the path they took to the rigging, the way they coiled the ropes, the location of the hatches leading below. One hatch, near the main mast, seemed to be used more frequently than the others. That was likely the way to the crew's quarters, or the galley.

Leuan had moved to stand near the first mate, their conversation low and tense. The first mate gestured toward me with his chin. Leuan said something that cut the conversation short. He turned his head, and his eyes found mine across the deck. He was always aware of where I am.

I turned my gaze to the ocean. It was a vast, terrifying expanse of deep blue, stretching to a horizon that seemed impossibly far away. There was no land in sight. To escape from here would not just mean getting off the ship. It would mean surviving the sea itself. The thought did not make me despair. It was simply another variable to be entered into the equation.

I watched a group of seabirds circling the mast. I followed their flight as they dipped and wheeled in the wind. To any of the men who might glance my way, I was a captive princess, looking wistfully out at the sea, perhaps thinking of her distant home. They did not see that I was measuring the height of the mast, calculating the distance from the railing to the water, mapping the geography of my prison.

A movement near my elbow made me turn. It was a boy, not much older than twelve or thirteen, with a thin face smudged with dirt and a mop of straw-colored hair that fell into his eyes. He was holding a tin cup, the same kind I’d been given at breakfast, and he held it out to me with a hand that trembled slightly.

“For you, miss,” he said. His voice was a high, uncertain tenor, not yet broken. “Princess.”

I looked from his nervous face to the cup. It was filled with water. I hadn't realized how thirsty I was, standing in the sun. The wind was cool, but the sun was high and hot on my head and shoulders.

“Thank you,” I said. My own voice sounded formal and stiff. I took the cup from him. Our fingers brushed. His were calloused but small.

He did not leave. He lingered, shifting his weight from one bare foot to the other, twisting the hem of his oversized shirt in his hands. He looked at me with wide, curious eyes, the way a child at a festival might look at a performing bear.

“Is it… is it very grand? The castle?” he asked, the words rushing out in a whisper. “Do you have a hundred servants?”

I took a sip of water. It was cool. I thought of the castle. I thought of the endless, polished halls, the silent footmen standing in every doorway, the stifling quiet of a life where every need was met before it was ever felt. It was grand, yes. It was also a cage.

Before I could form an answer, a voice cut through the air, sharp and cold as ice.

“Finn.”

The boy flinched as if he’d been struck. Every bit of color drained from his face. He spun around. Leuan stood not ten feet away, his arms crossed, his expression thunderous. He hadn’t shouted, but his voice had a quality that made the boy freeze in place.

“What are you doing?” Leuan asked, his voice dangerously quiet.

“Just… giving the lady some water, Captain,” Finn stammered, his eyes fixed on the deck planks.

“She is not a lady,” Leuan said, his gaze flicking to me for a cold, dismissive second. “She is cargo. Valuable cargo. You do not speak to the cargo. You do not look at the cargo. Do you understand me?”

“Yes, Captain.” The boy’s voice was barely audible.

“Now get back to your duties before I find a new one for you swabbing the bilge.”

“Yes, Captain.” Finn gave a jerky nod and then practically ran, his bare feet slapping against the wood as he scrambled toward the bow of the ship, disappearing behind a stack of barrels.

Leuan did not move. He was not looking at me. His eyes followed the path the boy had taken, and for a long moment, he just stared at the spot where Finn had vanished. The rigid anger in his posture seemed to seep away. The hard line of his jaw softened. He brought a hand up and rubbed the back of his neck, a gesture that seemed tired, almost weary. The anger in his eyes was gone, replaced by something else, something complex and shadowed that I could not name. It was not kindness. But it was not cruelty, either. It was the look of a man burdened by a responsibility he had not chosen, but would not relinquish.

Then he seemed to remember I was there. He dropped his hand and his head turned toward me. The mask was back in place, his eyes flat and unreadable. He gave me a single, hard look, a silent warning, before turning on his heel and striding back toward the first mate, leaving me alone by the railing, the boy’s cup still in my hand.

The rest of the day passed in a similar state of supervised isolation. I was eventually sent back to the cabin before sunset, the heavy bolt sliding home with a familiar, definitive sound. The sky had turned a strange, bruised purple, and the wind had a frantic edge to it that it hadn't possessed before.

I lay on the narrow cot, listening to the changing sounds of the ship. The rhythmic, almost gentle creaking of the timbers had been replaced by a chorus of groans and sharp cracks. The sea, which had been a steady rush against the hull, was now a series of violent slaps. I could hear the shouts of the men on deck, the words indistinct but the tone urgent. The floor began to tilt at increasingly severe angles.

It started without any more warning. A tremendous roar, and the entire world dropped out from under me. I was thrown from the cot, landing hard on my hands and knees on the wooden floor. Before I could even register the pain in my palms, the ship heaved in the opposite direction, rolling me into the wall beneath the small, shuttered porthole. My head struck the wood with a dull thud.

Across the small cabin, a heavy wooden crate that had been wedged in a corner broke free. It was the size of a small trunk, and it slid across the tilting floor with a horrifying screech of wood on wood, slamming into the opposite wall. Then, as the ship righted itself for a sickening moment of stillness, it slid back. It was a battering ram loose in my cell.

I scrambled away from it, trying to find purchase on the slick, heaving floor. The lantern, secured to a beam overhead, swung in a wild arc, casting dancing, distorted shadows. The noise was immense—the scream of the wind, the crash of water against the hull, the groaning protest of the ship itself, and the percussive slam of the crate against the walls.

The door flew open. It didn't unlock; it burst inward as if kicked, and Leuan filled the frame. He was drenched, his dark hair plastered to his skull, water running in rivulets down his face and from the hem of his sodden leather vest. He had to brace himself against the doorframe as the ship pitched again, his legs planted wide. His eyes found me on the floor, then darted to the crate as it began another perilous journey across the cabin.

He moved without a word. He seemed to flow into the room, his center of gravity low, his body moving in concert with the violent motion of the ship instead of fighting it. It was a strange, dangerous grace, like a panther’s. He ignored me completely, his entire focus on the crate. He intercepted it as it slid toward the desk, his hands catching it, his legs and back taking the full momentum of its weight. His muscles strained, the tattoos on his arms standing out in sharp relief.

I pushed myself into a sitting position, my back pressed against the wall, trying to stay out of his way. The ship gave a violent shudder, a lurch so profound it felt as if the sea had reached up and shaken the vessel like a toy. I lost my tenuous hold on the floor and was thrown forward, stumbling, my arms flailing for balance.

I fell against him.

My shoulder hit his back, my hands landing on his arm to steady myself. He was like a wall of solid, living rock. The ship tilted again, pressing me into him. His head turned slightly, his jaw tight with effort as he wrestled a length of rope from his belt. My cheek was pressed against the wet fabric of his shirt. I could feel the heat of his skin through it, the solid, unyielding power in the muscles of his back and shoulder. He smelled of rain and salt and something else, something warm and purely his own.

His arm moved, pulling the rope taut around the crate, and his bicep brushed against my side, a long, firm line of contact from my ribs to my hip. A strange, sharp jolt went through me. It was not fear. It was something else entirely, something I had no name for. It was a sudden, shocking awareness of his body against mine, of his strength, of his sheer physical presence in the chaos. For a half-second, we were just two people, braced against each other in the dark, trying not to fall.

He finished the knot, pulling it brutally tight. He gave the crate a hard shove with his shoulder to test it. It held fast. The ship began to settle into a more predictable, if still violent, rhythm. He didn’t push me away. He simply straightened up, and the movement created space between us. I scrambled back, my face hot, my heart beating with a rhythm that had nothing to do with the storm.

He turned to face me. His eyes, dark in the swinging lantern light, held an unreadable expression. He looked at me, really looked at me, for the first time since he’d entered the cabin. His gaze dropped to my mouth, then back to my eyes. The roar of the storm seemed to fade into the background. He opened his mouth as if to speak, but no words came out. He just stared, and I stared back, unable to move, my wet hair clinging to my face, the place where his arm had touched me burning like a brand.

Then he shook his head, a small, sharp motion. He turned, strode out of the cabin without a word, and pulled the splintered door shut behind him. I heard the scrape of something heavy being dragged in front of it from the other side. I was alone again, but the small space no longer felt empty. It felt charged, filled with the memory of his heat, and the unsettling pulse of my own blood.